On Saturday Claire Marshall, one of our founder members, sent the following contribution to Getting It Out There, a one-day symposium on touring contemporary theatre and live art in the UK:
Dear Alice, and dear All,
I’m 46 now and I’ve been touring since I was 23, that’s half my life; so I figured I should have something to say…
Ten years ago my great-aunt May died , and when we were clearing her house we discovered a pile of postcards that I had religiously sent her from the early years of touring with Forced Entertainment; a shoebox full of neatly written, enthusiastic and highly censored memories. Descriptions small towns in Winter and slightly underwhelmed audiences. Tales of truly fantastic performances, of loading and unloading endless lengths of scaffolding, of televisions that suddenly stopped working; and buzz’s and hums and driving at night, and of people that said , “that show was just like my life”.
I wrote wishing her good health and sunny days and hoping she was still getting out to the hills; thankyous for birthday tenners and how they were spent , excited news of imminent trips abroad and hopes for our own rehearsal space. Repetitive and a bit dull. I didn’t tell her everything.
In Leicester we went to nightclubs in shopping centres
In Dursley they opened the off-license for us at midnight
In Wolverhampton I bought shoes for to wear at my Grandpa’s funeral
In Scarborough we danced to Pulp in the secret cellar bar
In Kendal I got the news that my niece had been born and was seriously ill
In Portsmouth we found a taxidermy museum where all the exhibits were road-kill. A diorama of “Wind in the Willows” –all their little faces smashed up.
In Glasgow we (I) forgot the costumes
In London we made birthday cakes at 3am
In Cardiff I bought buttons shaped like roses and hearts
In Bedford we measured our weight loss or gain by squashing ourselves into the 12” gap between the dressing room double doors
In Cambridge my school-friend told me she was leaving her husband and kids
In Totnes we fell over in the sea
In Nottingham we plotted an experimental theatre 5 a side football league
In Southhampton we bought cheap sparkly tops to wear after the show
In Leigh we got depressed
In Portsmouth we played pool in the launderette
In Edinburgh we nearly killed Bob
In Crawley we shared the bill with the Chippendales
In Leeds we barely fitted on the stage
In Cardiff tumbleweed rolled slowly across the stage…
In Manchester we discovered how difficult it was to buy fairy lights in May
In Lancaster we lived at the Farmers’ Arms
We did all the things you do. In towns that were foreign but became familiar we learned where the best places were to collect fallen leaves, where to buy chalk that would produce dust, where to buy streamers and balloons and the right sort of party hats; where to get beer after hours and pizzas with no sweetcorn.
We loaded and unloaded vans. We drank instant coffee. We played cards during long soundchecks and made up buckets of blood. We drank and drank and smoked and ate crisps and flapjack and bananas. Children were born and people died. We returned to the same places over and over. We watched high streets homogenize, we sent rubbish presents and late birthday cards with apologies; we stayed up late watching rolling news of elections and wars.
We did the things you do; in Birmingham and Brighton and Newcastle and Milton Keynes and Aberystwyth and Basildon and Stamford Bridge and Bristol and Sheffield and maybe some other places too.
I stopped taking photographs because they all started to blur-stick figures on November beaches wearing long dark coats; us in a bar , us in another bar, us in another bar, us all squashed into a chintz-thick bedroom where “contractors are always welcome”. More late night conversations.
We started to say: let’s be more nimble
let’s play bigger stages
let’s do fewer gigs for more people
let’s find an audience to grow older with us
We began to refer to “a tighter bombing pattern”
This is nostalgia: sentimental and incomplete. I don’t really want to go back there-but there is something ; something about sideshows and circus and vaudeville-end of the pier-shysters and charlatans that I miss. Different towns that are sort of the same ,the rhythm of returning at the same time of year( England in the Autumn), meeting people, re-meeting people missing people; arriving, doing the show , leaving –your only traces being talcum powder on the blacks or some bit of costume hurled in the air and stuck in the rig. Tourists maybe- tourists who can’t help but come back with a new bag of tricks.
We said it would be ridiculous if we were still doing this when we were forty….
So we started to play bigger spaces and left some of those towns off the map. We made it to the States with a bunch of similar souls brought together by Lois and Catherine at the ICA; and driving in a real yellow taxi from JFK to Hotel New York (home from home for those seeking “transient chic”) Ronnie Fraser Munro drawled “I see nothing here that can compare to Crewe Station”.
And now we do play some bigger stages –and some small. And we still stay up late. And we say: we don’t like buildings where the audience and performers never really meet , buildings where they’re surprised that you can do the laundry and perform, buildings where they want to know who wrote it; buildings where there isn’t a bar people actually want to stay in.
In all sorts of places we, and what we might refer to as our filthy collaborators are still asking: What the hell is a good show? Who comes to see us and why?
I’m sorry that this is just looking back, I acknowledge that I’m ignoring all sorts of work that operates out there! I think I’m trying to make sense of it all by going back maybe; re-telling and reinventing. We still want to be nimble , to respond and make in all sorts of ways and to surprise ourselves, and maybe the demise of touring is okay: more work made for specific places- big shows and small shows, shows that work outside of 2 hours in a dark room, live streaming..it’s exciting and it’s complicated
People can watch a theatre performance beamed live from London in the comfort of a multi-plex ,with close-ups and everything…but I really liked being in Taunton not so very long ago-with a disparate bunch of people who wanted to be in the same room , the kind of gig where small connections are made; where someone can talk to me about what they saw and how it punched them in a way that they didn’t expect; the kind of gig where they say “and when are you coming back?”
With very best wishes
Claire